Sometimes ranting is good

Since this blog is supposed to be about emotions and how crappy the world we are living is, I am going to a very important aspect of our daily life - ranting. When at times you are alone against this cruel world, the best weapon at your arsenal is ranting and your only ally is rage and this keyboard. To be ever so ruthless in the words that you throw in. Never mindful of whatever and whomever, just recklessly going about any angst that you may have, be it for a specific person or situation or inanimate object.

I tell you yes ranting is sometimes good. It keeps you in control of your emotions all the better. Before you loose yourself, you know deep inside you that you already have better things to say. So whenever there are situations were you are angered, just hold on to that and let it pass. You always have your pen and paper or your computer at a slightly delayed time to rant. I believe it is more of responsibly ranting if there is such a term.

It is always so easy to get drowned in here. Drowning oneself in obscurity and surfacing back again to reality and just an endless cycle of abstraction and realism. What then is my point? I'm just saying I am ranting right now but I cannot get the right subjects or the right words to come out. It is like something invisible is compelling me not to do it. But what the heck. Crap, I am just in deep shit right now for being so true to my emotions when it is uncalled for. I do not know if I can afford to make amends knowing the bridge has been burnt and that there is no going back to this.

For whatever this is and for what its worth, I know that up above is a living God who always oversees things, however crappy things here on earth are. And it such a wonderful feeling that we are His sons and that we are blessed one way or the other.

After exactly 4 years...

It's been a while. A lot of things have changed. It is still the same me. Let's just say that I have been on a very exciting roller coaster ride and still is together with the person I have been in love with for almost 4 years now. It is funny how we have grown so much since that time. I still feel the same old feeling that I had before. Reading through and re-visiting this blog puts me into a trance and transports me into a fantastic world of nostalgia and sweet joy.

It is amazing at times to think that we have been on this for quite a very long time already, enjoying the present and I am still looking forward for a great future ahead with her. Funny thing is that, crazy me even tried to play with some of those online stuff that predicts your future baby and future appearances as well. I can see clearly, as the sun is shining through the day, that our future is bright and even though we face hardships, we are facing it together.

It gets me to a genesis of events and made me realize how we had started it. It got me through all the good news as gospels of the present and that there is a very bright revelation ahead of me with the person I love the most. And if we will be joined by God, not even the most powerful man can separate us.

Fantasy / Reality

Sometimes its really hard to imagine... Is there a line that borders reality and fantasy? Are they two opposing realms or are they just there complementing each other? From what I know the only way to check if its real is to feel it or see it or, in general, sense it. Anything that you're not sensing is part of a fantasy.

Now here's the thing about love: when can you say that it is in fact just a fantasy or if its real? I have thought about this one a lot of times recently. Well, love is something that you feel and something that you want a person to feel. So what is that thin line between it, then? The key word is: feel. I should say that you may tell another person that you love her. Your feelings maybe real for you but not for her. You maybe just faking it because you wanted something from that girl like physical satisfaction of some sort. If its fake then it's just a fantasy. A guy's fantasy maybe a girl's reality. This is very possible. But there is an ideal thing where a guy's love is being reciprocated and both of them are in a single magical reality that both of them have created for themselves. This one is real even if it would seem to an outside eye as something crazy, stupid and fancy.

So if you see a couple somewhere and they are both so in-love, do not judge them. It might be that you are trampling on their magical reality.

Some Love Notes

This is mush and you wouldn't believe me if I say I sent this to someone I love today. It's a great feeling to love somebody.

i love you and i want to live forever loving you
i want to be forever young for you
and if we really grew old
we'll grow old loving each other

It's an aftershock musing at the lyrics of Alphaville, a song called Forever Young. I love that song. It makes me believe that I could actually be forever young and live forever loving that special someone.

Prose: definitely better

I think I should stop writing about something just to make people think I'm capable enough to write stuff. I am not a writer for one. I don't even know what I'm doing here blogging. The previous blog was composed of simple words, because those are easier to read. I like it when people use simple words. What I know is that each of these blogs have their own stories that needs to be read. And I have my fair share of stories and ideas as well, so might as well write.

So why do people write about them? A whole lot of reasons, I dont even know. The joy of having a site available to everybody. Sharing experiences both good and bad, popular ones and some that are most hilarious. Simply having a place of your own on this virtual kind of world. Making your way towards a goal. Letting others know what you think and feel about something.

I say prose is freedom. It is the very backbone of our society or at least of the society I belong. Let people know that there is a voice somewhere on the deep recesses of this realm.

Little boy blue, come blow your horn... Enough of this already.

Haikus

A sweet soft voice in my ears.
Whispering love thoughts,
If then when will you be mine?

The sweetness of your first kiss.
When can I hold you,
And say How much I love you?

Let us soar up in the skies.
Can I embrace you,
Forever till the world ends?

Message in a bottle

This is a repost from Thursday September 22, 2005 blog at http://360.yahoo.com/jambatiquin

I have been re-aranging the room and did some cleaning as well. I've encountered a lot of rubbish. Put them on a bin. One of the scratch papers read:

• Go for someone who makes you smile ' cause only a smile makes a dark day seem bright. Hope you find that person.
• The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves and not to twist them w/ our own image - otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.'
• It hurts to love someone & not be loved in return. But what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.
• There are things you'd love to hear, but you would never hear it from the person you would like to hear from, but don't be deaf to hear it from the person who says it w/ his heart.
  I realized it was my big sister's handwriting and thought of how much these things mean/meant to her. So I posted it here hoping this would find its way through.

I realized it was my big sister's handwriting and thought of how much these things mean/meant to her. So I posted it here hoping this would find its way through.

Another piece of crap

What is crap anyways? Crap is anything that's stinky! It's the stuff of all ages. Everybody knows what it is even before history began.. history, huh. It could be your recent ugly encounter. It could be your recent amazing moment. It could be your happiest times of the day. It could be anything special and extraordinary. Yes, it stinks because it's the stuff that you smell even if it's not worth smelling or read even if it's not worth reading.

It's anything mush and anything about nothing! It is a mix of all the things you digest and excrete. It's anything that comes out of you. Anything that was originally comming in, was ingested and now is wanting to come out.

If there's anything more stupid, funnier, crazier and anything at all that you could think of other than all that I have said here, watch out for those they might be crap!